Time to open up YOUR path!!Stress sucks! Sometimes it seems to come at you like flaming arrows from all directions at once. And many times, you have no control over the things that are happening to you, nor could you predict them to begin with. That is where I am, and have been for about two weeks. Every stinkin' day it's something new, and it's bad, and there's usually very little I can do about it. Of course you can moan, groan and complain. But it doesn't fix the problem(s). If God was trying to teach me something then He needs to use a different approach because I'm so not "getting it"!!!
So while I can do nothing about:
* Rude neighbors
* Service providers who don't provide service
* Jerkoffs stealing my money from Mexico via an ATM
* VISA corporation's non-sensical policies
* My phone - which STILL doesn't work
* ebay sellers who are frauds
* Bad bus drivers
* my stinkin' allergies
I CAN however adjust how I react to my stressors. Even if I don't see them coming. Even if they make me crazy. Even if I can't fix them because I'm not a "real" person like my money earning husband is. Even if my head is going to explode from the gallons of boogies and snot I seem to be producing on an hourly basis. Even then. I can stop, assess, and keep control of some things. And for a control freak like me, that's essential. As essential as breathing is to everyone else!
So I really thought about everything that was going on, and my reactions to it. I no longer smoke (six months last Saturday!!), so that crutch is out. So I was back to my old standby - food. Food, like anything else abused and used as a crutch, doesn't fix problems. It can however make you feel better temporarily. Of course until the point comes that it makes you feel worse. Way worse!!! With everything that has been going on and all the craziness associated with it, I finally, finally decided to just stop the vicious cycle of overeating. This WAS something I could control!
Unlike smoking though, I can't just stop eating. And even though I know what to do, what not to do and I have a freaking cookbook already....I just needed some help. Me. Super Jeannie. Needed help. (ouch) I sooooo hate saying that!!!!! I am the one who helps other people. I don't ask for help. Even when I need it. ESPECIALLY when I need it. But everyone reaches rock bottom eventually and for me that was on Tuesday; when I finally said "ENOUGH ALREADY!" and broke down and ordered NutriSystem again. This is the only program I know with 100000% certainty that works. After a couple of months I'm going to be sick of the same ole, same ole foods and will be more than ready to follow the plan with own yummy recipes again. But for right now, I need to keep it simple. Simple, easy and stress-free is what is going to keep me on course. And help me regain control.
Because if I can take back control of this - this one thing - I feel like I can get back in control of everything else. So things will make sense again. So I'm not some piece of dandelion fluff floating on the breeze, this way and that. So the overwhelming spirals of depression would release me from it's iron grip on my soul. So I can feel great, inside and out. So I can be the person I'm meant to be!!!! Not this sick caricature of myself that I've become.
I begin on Monday and I'm counting on YOU to keep me accountable! Beginnings are always the hardest. ALWAYS!!! But I've decided. And that, my friends is that.
So while I can do nothing about:
* Rude neighbors
* Service providers who don't provide service
* Jerkoffs stealing my money from Mexico via an ATM
* VISA corporation's non-sensical policies
* My phone - which STILL doesn't work
* ebay sellers who are frauds
* Bad bus drivers
* my stinkin' allergies
I CAN however adjust how I react to my stressors. Even if I don't see them coming. Even if they make me crazy. Even if I can't fix them because I'm not a "real" person like my money earning husband is. Even if my head is going to explode from the gallons of boogies and snot I seem to be producing on an hourly basis. Even then. I can stop, assess, and keep control of some things. And for a control freak like me, that's essential. As essential as breathing is to everyone else!
So I really thought about everything that was going on, and my reactions to it. I no longer smoke (six months last Saturday!!), so that crutch is out. So I was back to my old standby - food. Food, like anything else abused and used as a crutch, doesn't fix problems. It can however make you feel better temporarily. Of course until the point comes that it makes you feel worse. Way worse!!! With everything that has been going on and all the craziness associated with it, I finally, finally decided to just stop the vicious cycle of overeating. This WAS something I could control!
Unlike smoking though, I can't just stop eating. And even though I know what to do, what not to do and I have a freaking cookbook already....I just needed some help. Me. Super Jeannie. Needed help. (ouch) I sooooo hate saying that!!!!! I am the one who helps other people. I don't ask for help. Even when I need it. ESPECIALLY when I need it. But everyone reaches rock bottom eventually and for me that was on Tuesday; when I finally said "ENOUGH ALREADY!" and broke down and ordered NutriSystem again. This is the only program I know with 100000% certainty that works. After a couple of months I'm going to be sick of the same ole, same ole foods and will be more than ready to follow the plan with own yummy recipes again. But for right now, I need to keep it simple. Simple, easy and stress-free is what is going to keep me on course. And help me regain control.
Because if I can take back control of this - this one thing - I feel like I can get back in control of everything else. So things will make sense again. So I'm not some piece of dandelion fluff floating on the breeze, this way and that. So the overwhelming spirals of depression would release me from it's iron grip on my soul. So I can feel great, inside and out. So I can be the person I'm meant to be!!!! Not this sick caricature of myself that I've become.
I begin on Monday and I'm counting on YOU to keep me accountable! Beginnings are always the hardest. ALWAYS!!! But I've decided. And that, my friends is that.
22 comments:
Good Luck! I need to start exercising soon to get this baby weight off! Hubby's excited b/c I told him I would cut the grass next-I haven't been able to do it in the past few months b/c of being sooo pregnant!
I need to lose this baby weight (my Baby is 20!)
I'm with ya'. You have to start somewhere.
I need to control my food binges. It's ugly and making me miserable.
YAY for my Queen!!!!! I am behind you all the way!!!!
Your post is timely. I was thinking about avoiding a Dr. appointment next week because I've gained some weight and then decided I need to face the music and maybe she will give me some tips. Nutrisystem might be the answer (Marie Osmond sure looks good). We're with you all the way!
Good luck! I think NutriSystem would be the ideal diet, especially because I HATE deciding what to eat. Is the food good?
Jeannie...I have complete faith in you that you will reach your goal! Keep your chin up, girl, and stay positive!
Jeannie, Have you thought of canceling your landline and getting cell phones. We did that about 8 months ago and have not missed having a landline one bit. We pay 95 $ a month for all 4 of us to have a cell phone. I blocked the texting and all that stuff from the phones so the kids can't abuse them. We saved 100 a month canceling the landline. It was one less bill to pay !
Good Luck! I am a recent Nutri System dropout. I was all pumped up and decided this was for me but for some reason I got hives eating some of the food. LOL Go figure Apparently I had a reaction to the fish oils in the ingrediants...LOL
So now I have to come up with a new game plan...which includes no fish oils or products..LOL
GOOOD LUCK and food is also my go to when this go wrong! Esp when the Husband is gone so very much!
Once again, we'll do it together!
I am here being your cheerleader and a support beam. And if you need to rant feel free to call...when the phone is working that is!
First, I'm sure you can do it. Just mentally picture how good you will feel when you are in the shape you want to be in.
Second, I always have the easiest time starting something new because I haven't figured out that I don't like it yet, at that point. Maybe it will be that way for you.
I'm all for non-think-about it ways to handle problems. Those work the best for me and you are smart to realize that the easier it is to do the more likely you are to stick with it!
Happy Tuesday!
I mean, Thursday. Happy Thursday! Goodness.
Good for you on taking charge again. I wish you the best of success. I could never afford those programs so I've always had to go it on my own. You're lucky!
I can't believe you've had that much crap happen to you lately though. Geez, I'd be completely stressed out too.
That's great that you are taking charge. I'm right behind ya' for support!
Glad you know what works for you and that you are moving forward with it!! You're right that we'll be here to cheer you on (and push you along if need be). Best of luck! ;-)
Best of luck to you! We're all here to support you, it makes a big difference...and when the lbs. shed, you'll feel great.
YEAH you! I have to stop and take control of my eating all the time...you are going to do great! :)
Man you have had a list of crappy things going on haven't you! So sorry.
Hey but way to take control!! Sometimes you gotta do what you gotta do. Good luck!! I'll be cheering for you :D
good for you!! i'll be here to support you all the way!!
Congrats on quitting that nasty smoking habit and good luck with the NutriSystem. You can do it!
Good for you! As an incentive (and assuming weight loss is a goal as well as getting healthy), you may want to get one of those weight trackers like I have on my page. Put that bugger right up near the top so people see it first thing when they go to your page. Your readers are your best cheerleaders.
Go Jeannie...Go Jeannie...First of all, I'm super proud of you for kicking the ole smoking habit! Wow, has it really been SIX months!?
And, as I sit here eating my enormous bowl of noodle soup, I am jealous that you have a plan with the whole food biz! You can do it! I know you can.
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